2010 was a challenge for me--personally, physically and mentally. Glad it's over and 2011 is going to be the best yet!
I have decided that I need something to kick start my weight loss goal. I am not ashamed to admit that it has been a real challenge the past few years to keep my diabetes in check, as well as my weight. (Let's not talk about the challenge of them both and how both really affect each other)
Back to my point--I am committed to this system, not neccesarily eating healthier (I always have!) but to retrain my mind on portion control and focusing on exercising that will help me. I've had excuses, damn good ones too, um, two car wrecks, this thing called grad school that has taken over my life, oh, and a little thing in my life called diabetes!
But I am not comfortable in my own skin anymore. This needed to be a public address to something that has bothered me for a long time. It took me most of high school for me to "be ok" with my diabetes and my insulin pump. I still have days that it just makes me mad, BUT, I put my big girl panties on and get over it. I was dealt this hand and I am going to do the best I can with it. I have a GIANT and I mean like two giant closets full of clothes that don't fit. I am not going to get rid of anything (surprize!) and I am going to get back into MY clothes again. Not that I need these clothes to be me, but those clothes made me feel like I could accomplish anything. I know it sounds stupid, maybe even vein, but who cares. My family literally bent over backwards my entire life to give me what I needed (I'm not spoiled -- I'm BLESSED!!!) and I want to be able to walk in my closet and ask myself, "What should I wear today?" and have CHOICES!!!
I ordered my Nutrisystem this morning and it should arrive in the next 5-7 days. This is my goal for the world to see:
LOSE 45 POUNDS IN 38 WEEKS
There it is. I have said it and now I am accountable not only to myself, but everyone to hold me accountable for what I have set out to do.
Thank you to everyone for your support! Let the good times roll!!!
To my "Blessed" Megan Ashley: You blessed us, your family from the moment you entered this world, one rainy, beautiful April morning, Thursday, April 30, 1985! That 1st evening, when our family was united with our baby girl & you stood straight up on my lap just hours old~we were so thrilled to see your strength! Not knowing what paths we would all have to walk, nor mountains we would have to climb...I now know God gave us all stamina to endure pain & to fight any battle the enemy throws our way. Your battle with diabetes has molded you into the beautiful, courageous, loving, intelligent young woman who is taking the world by "storm"! Diabetes sucks! It's an ugly disease that we all hate & fight against, but it's you who has chosen to not let it define you! Instead, "You are using it" to make choices, to accomplish great things & open windows of opportunities! I'm so proud of you! You've always had my support, my love~you make me so proud. You have already succeeded, Let's celebrate!
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Sensational 2011